My Journey
Hey Babe,
So, I woke up at 3:45 this morning and checked my phone (which is always bad, since I know better and should just potty and go back to bed, but I didn’t!!), and there was a text from LH that said he had an update and to call him when I’m available and ready to chat. Of course, I know exactly what he’s talking about since there’s only one thing left that he's following up on—the autopsy report from the coroner. So, I texted him, “I’m in China. Can I handle this update while I’m here?” (He must have forgotten that I was in China because I know he wouldn't have texted me if he knew and put me through the agony that I'm about to tell you now.) He asked when I was coming back, and I said Saturday AM. He said, "Let's talk when you get back on Sat." Then I asked, "What is the update specifically, is there cause of death?" He stopped responding, so I try to go back to bed, but you know how I am. I couldn’t sleep and started working, and then I start texting LH again. Asking what is the update specifically and if there's a cause of death and that I wanted to know now. I told him to tell me (even though I was scared and frightened to know all at the same time), and he said, “No, since you don’t have a support network there to handle this news.” Annoyed, I continue to blow up his phone with questions and pleas that I need to know, so he called to put me in my place. (I really don’t understand how I continue to collect husbands (real and work) that are so mean to me and always wanting to put me in my place!) He called around 6:15am (yes, this was in a span of multiple hours, I’m giving you the Amazing Race version of this story. Okay, now I can see how annoying I was in hindsight) to say that he is working, and nothing is going to change from now to when I get back on Saturday, so he’s not going to tell me and to stop asking. He called it tough love! So, I’m in tears; crying in the dark in my hotel room as he is yelling at me (I call it yelling, he called it tough love...I say tomato, you say tom-at-o), and I said fine. So, I guess I’ll just have to wait until Saturday to find out why you dropped dead on me. I guess there’s a reason now and only the coroner and LH knows! Anyways, it’s almost 7:30am and I have to pack up, eat breakfast, and check out before 8:30am. I’m heading back to Hong Kong this evening. Tomorrow is a holiday in HKG, so we’re going sightseeing. The Big Buddha is our main attraction. Supposedly there’s 400+ steps to climb after taking a gondola to the platform. So, if I don’t write ever again, it’s because I collapsed from over exhaustion going up the stairs to visit the big Buddha. I hope LH feels bad for not letting me know why you died if I drop dead tomorrow, but then again, I get to see you again. (Okay, bad joke, but we never let any bad experiences take away our sense of humor!!)
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Jaimie
4/4/2018 12:43:14 am
Sorry Sun. That was so smart of Lee to wait. He is right. You need your support network there. Like you already said, the info isn’t going to bring Sean back. But, it will be very difficult info to hear nonetheless.
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Sun
4/4/2018 03:37:48 am
Whatever Jaimie! You’re supposed to take my side!!
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